Once again life changes ...

Once again life is changing.

I just wish things would slow down once in a while, and work for us, instead of against us.  It is so hard to try and move forward from things, when there is always something to hold you back.  For me, it's fear of the unknown, but not on my part, as much as my husbands.  We are relocating and it will take him away from where he's grown up, but the job opportunities are better for both of us in another state.

I know how scary it can be, but he is still hiding his emotions and feelings from everyone around him.  I made a huge move a year ago, and understand how hard it is, but I did it.  He's having a very hard time, and with me especially, it's frustrating.  I love him, but wish that right now, things were different.

I get that he's scared, and even apprehensive, but we can't continue the way things are right now.  I worry that this could truly destroy us, in a way that I don't know if it will ever be able to be fixed.  Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a "doer" and that I don't accept it when people are unable to do what they say they are going to, simply because they can't be 'bothered" .. right now, he's slowly falling into a depression, and while I can understand his fears are what's driving him there, I can't help but feel a little selfish, and want to get mad at him, and yell that he's not  the only one moving, and changing their life.

Men can be so difficult sometimes, if only he believed in himself, the way I do .. I try all the time, to encourage him, and help him feel better about himself, but that doesn't seem to help.

Baby Steps

One of the biggest obstacles in our lives, is the approval seeking process we go through as children.  We spend most of our formative years, wanting approval, for everything from learning to walk, to our friends, and the way we act in public with others.

I have always prided myself with my ability to 'behave' in public (so to speak) and I have tried to teach my children the same thing, and I pride myself on the comments I get, from others, about my children when they are out.  I have tried to teach them what is acceptable, and what isn't, which brings me to today's post ....

I have seen all types of behavior, being a child care provider, and a parent.  You see that child in Walmart having a temper tantrum, and the first thing you say is " OMG look at how they are behaving ".  I have realized that it's not always the child's fault on how they behave, because they don't 'understand' the consequences of their actions.  We, as parents are supposed to be teaching our children what's acceptable, and what isn't.

I have been in situations where I would love to go out, but my child isn't feeling well, or they are tired.  What do you do ?  Do you risk the all mighty 'melt down' in the store, because you KNOW that your child is tired, or do you let them nap, and then go out ?  I've done both, and let me tell you, I've learned one thing in the past (almost) 11 years ... Groceries will wait, shopping will wait, but our children grow up way too fast.

Cherish your children, have a great day.